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I feel so happy!
I got a package from Lera, my old =) friend, she wasmy classmatefrom 1st to 9th grade.
She sent me Matreshka )))) Never got Matreshka as a present!
And a really funny soft toy - a Deer =) I think it's more like reindeer, my host mom told me that I should call him (or her, can't really say - has long lashes)))) Chocolate Muss =)
Also she sent me a cd with a lot of Pictures of her, my other school friends, our city and different places in russia that she's been to. Some of them from my birthday in 9th grade, I remember I forgot my camera that day and she promised to give me these pictures later.
It's so nice.......... makes me smile.
I'll place some of the pictures in my photoalbom.

See!!!! Somebody loves me!!!
Smiling in this picture... but eyes seem sad. Wonder why)

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No plans for today.
Yesterday went out a lot, the day before wasn't home the whole day too.
Yesterday went to the movies and watched a cute movie about chickmunks. I wish Liza would see it later.
Also watched Ever After when we finally got home from the book shop. A really nice movie and a romantic one too. I bougth The forth summer of Traveling Pants and was reading it till 2 in the morning yesterday. I LOVE THESE BOOKS! They are my favorite. And quite easy to read too.
I guess I'll just get up now and go upstears to read.... love ya!

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Привет Папулик!
Простите что так долго не писала, я пыталась, правда=)
Вот сейчас уже и поздно, но спать что-то не хочетсяю Лежу думаю о вас. Я конечно скучаю, но не так невыносимо. Улыбаюсь, когда думаю о вас. Решила вот поделиться с тобой мыслью, которая ко мне сегодня пришла. Я и раньше так думала, просто сегодня я об этом Вспомнила!
Ходили в магазин, я купила себе книгу на английском, буду читать. Она из той серии, мама знает наверное, Волшебные штаны, про дружбу 4х девочек. Это 4я книга, три первые я прочла до этого, еще когда дома была. Использовала карточку, которую мне одруга на день рож. подарила - это как купон, который можно использовать вместо определенной суммы денег. И мне прешла в голову мысль, что я счастлива. Обслютно! На все 100%! И у меня все есть. Я конечно бы не отказалась увидеть вас прямо сейчас! Но это за пределами возможного, конечно.
Я знаю, что вы за меня переживаете, это хорошо, но только не надо за меня слишком переживать. Моих хостов я обожаю, думаю, что мне с ними очень повезло. Конечно постоянно себе говорю, что дело не во мне когда Эшлин не очень приветлива со мной, она просто такая сама по себе.
Сегодня Роберт сказал как они мной гордятся, и какая я молодец. Разговаривали о многом.Обсуждали мою анкету и вопросы на которые я отвечала. И тот самый главный вопрос о том как я реагирую и как веду себя при споре и конфликте. Он сказал, что самый большой конфликт который у нас был - тогда когда я начала заболевать, но еще и не заболела. Меня друзья пригласили пойти кудато вместе, по магазинам а потом в кино. Я спросила у него можно ли мне пойти, а он сказал что мне лучше дома остаться и выздоровить пока я окончательно не заболела. Он видел как сильно я была разочарована, я оченьхотела пойти... Но я сказала - ты прав. Вот и все. Сейчас вспоминаю и улыбаюсь, кажется я повзрослела очень.
Вобщем, они замечательные, Рождество было волшебное! Вся атмосфера! И носки на камине с подарками, и подарки под елкой и конфеты, и пироги, и печеньки. Вобщем как в фильмах у американцев роджество. Подарки мне подарили, все перечислять не буду, но главный подарок был теннисная ракетка и мячи, чтобы я могла тренироваться. Познакомилась с Бабушкой и дедушкой Барбары. Мои хост бабушка и дедушка тоже приходили. Все дарили мне подарки, ну и не только мне, конечно. Почувствовала себя частью семьи. Сначала, чувствовала себя неудобно из-за стольких подарков и внимания, но потом Мэган мне сказала, что они все это делаю,потому что хотят чтобы я себя чувствовала как в семье.
Так что когда мне грустно или я чем-то растроена я думаю о хорошем.. Думала о доме. Как-то я позабыла как там все внутри. Попроси чтобы Лизочек мне карту дома нарисовала, она это может, я знаю. Соскучилась по ней! Очень. Она у меня самая замечательная на всем белом свете! Самая незаменимая! Надеюсь что она по мне также скучает как и я по ней! Я вот думаю, что ей наверное тяжело. Весь этот год она уже стала достаточно взрослой, так что с ней можно было разговаривать о серьезных вещах, при этом обясняя все что ей не понятно. Мне очень нехватает этих разговоров. Разговоров обо всем на свете.
В апреле я думаю будет возможность поехать в НьюЙорк на один день, но весь день экскурсии и Бродвей, статуя свободы, таймсквер и все такое. Поездка вместе с Бизнесс кружком. Стоит $140, я подумала что это хорошая идея использовать деньги которые мне подарили на день рожденье. Надо такой шанс использовать. Робер планирует поездку в Вашинктон с экскурсиями и все такое. Барбара достала билеты в Вашингтон монумент, Роберт собирается достать пропуск в белый дом, в то крыло что не для туристов, но это не точно. Вот так вот.
Я вас очень очень люблю!
Не знаю что о чем еще написать. Пап, есл хочешь маме письмо показать, ты его можешь распечатать! *подмигиваю*
Поцелуй ее за меня! И Лизочку!

Так что вот думаю о вас и улыбаюсь)))))))))
Надеюсь что у вас все хоршо!

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I miss my friends so so so so much!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today I randomly thought of my phone that I left at home, there are text messages.. from Dasha, not sure about Jenya(I got it as a present last summer), everybody and Emanuele... I haven't hold it in my hand for a loong time now... I have pictures in it too...very nice pictures.
Home. I left it at home... I don't even know where is home now! Coz my parents moved to our new house. I don't know how everything looks like in there and what is the color of the wallpaper in my room... I picked it up, but I forgot how it look like now... I have another furniture there... and curtains... h....
Have a karusel of faces in my mind, trying to imagine everyone... it's getting harder.. but not really)
See u next year...................................... h.....

There was no snow!!!
There is still no snow...
Just lots of rain... Rain makes me sad.
Anybody stop it.
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Today was quite a nice day. I had fun and spent the whole day with Meaghan and her 9years old brother Kody. We went to the movie theatre, but it was sold out, they didn't have anymore. So we went back to Meaghan's house to watch movies. Watched a really sad and cute movie A little princess, I liked it a lot, I even cryed a little. I don't let myself cry, but a movie is a different thing.

Wear my new scarf all day today! I got it for Christmas...)

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And how it could be if I would be originally American!?
Well, sometimes I think about what people do or say here.. or about the way they do some stuff that it is sooooo wrong!!!
But about some traditions i think i would be glad to bring them to my country... and on the other side, my country has holidays and usual things in some ways better and.. different from this!!!

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Was playing DDR or a while with Ashlyn, Trevor and Meaghan. Beated Ashlyn couple times.. Trevor is really fast. (DDR is a dance video game)
Now Trevor is playing his Guitar Hero...
My host Great Grandparents ar very nice)) GreatGrandpa is 90! And he's really good health, it's amaizing. I was talking to him for a while. GreatGrandma Alice (she's not a real GreatGrandma, she's the 2nd wife) was working in american embessy in Moscow 40 years ago (it was USSR)
got more presents...) And from M too.. Trying to analize my thought about out relationship. Getting more and more confused. Trying to understand what I WANT. It's kind of hard...
Christmas is amaizing. It's been great. Feels weird being with another family during such a holiday.. Trying to imagine what would I feel if a Christmas like this would be usual for me. Or how it would be being a real part of this family. Would I be the same, would I say and do the same stuff, I think so...

Christmas is amaizing!!! It's a special day!!!
I want to share my good mood with everyone! ))))
Have a Merry Christmas!!!
I got presents!!!
And postcard from California from my host Grandpa and Grandma
And a card from Uncle Paul))) from Atlanta (he is my host Dad's brother)
I gave presents too!!!)))) Feels great!
Gonna see M today and give him card and my present!!!
For dinner my host Grandpa and Grandma, Great-Grandpa and Great-Grandma are coming =) Haven't met Great-Grandpa and Great-Grandma yet...

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Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer
had a very shiny nose.
And if you ever saw him,
you would even say it glows.

All of the other reindeer
used to laugh and call him names.
They never let poor Rudolph
join in any reindeer games.

Then one foggy Christmas Eve
Santa came to say:
"Rudolph with your nose so bright,
won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"

Then all the reindeer loved him
as they shouted out with glee,
Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer,
you'll go down in history!

Yeah! My host mom drove me t theshop, we found everything pretty fast...
Well, now I present to M, I already gave Meaghan her present... And she gave me a cuuute shirt with Sally (from Nightmare before Christmas))) I like tis movie a lot, the way it made and all the songs)))
I have presents for my hostfamily - I'm so glad now I thought about it months and months ago. =)
and my mood is getting better)
Now i'm gonna rape the presents and write on the cards...
And clean the floor (oh! That was random!!!)))

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It's Christmas Eve today...
I woke up at about 12... My host parents are upset that I was sleeping that long, coz I missed a lot of fun when they were baking together and making cookies and stuff like this. They were gonna wake me up, but didn't coz i'm still sick.
Christmas Eve which equals cleaning since the grandparents and great-grandparents are comming over tomorrow.
So I vacumed, dusted, cleaned my bathroom.. Only my room isn't done yet.
Preasents are not all ready, coz they aren't raped yet... and i still need to get something for M...
Sh**! I didn't have a chance to get some more presents to everybody, coz i've being stucked in the house since I got sick (except last Friday when I went to Fredericksburg downtown)... That's too bad.

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Raoul (Cliff)
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Christine (Sarah)
Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.

Raoul
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.

Christine
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.

Raoul
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you want me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.

Christine
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.

Together
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.

Christine
Say you love me ...

Raoul
You know I do.

Together:
Love me, that's all I ask of you ...

Love me, that's all I ask of you.

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Don't want to write anything personal.


It's amaizing how it can feel so safe with someone else...
Any time can fly by...
And you can't kiss somebody, but stil can be close...
How happy can make you the fact that we're are together again...
And everything even more exciting after a break...
You can lay on the couch together and not talking at all, feel safe and warm inside.
Or talking about not important things.
Or about really serious stuff...
Have a opportunity to ask about anything.
Had a pillow fight =)
Just smile without a reason.
Be asked "what r u thinking about?"
Relax and be myself..
make plans...
make wishes...
watch Madagaskar and get a joke about "NY Gyants".
Laught about random phrases...
Not thinking about anything...
Share your dreams and things you worry about...
Telling stories about your best friends.. and smile =)
feel better inside... finally.

when it's gone.... you think about it.

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Still sick...
today was the first day of christmas holidays.. =( I feel upset and tired.
Actually i was sleeping all day today. I woke up at 12 this morning, then I heard Patrick's voice "Alina, we're sorry" Then Trevor's band started playing. They play really loud. I can't be in my room and you're getting a headache even if you're upstears. So... I came upstears. And fell asleep in the armchair, trying not to pay attention to loud noises. (The only thing i don't like about Trevor's band is that they scream their lyrics)
Then i watched The Phantom of Opera, I've read the book be4, so it was pretty interesting...
At dinner i ate just a little bit of it, like, couple bites...
I don't eat much recently. Today I had a banana, yesterday 1 slice of pizza, the day before - a toast... I know that I should eat more, but i'm not hungry.
My host dad told me that if i really feel bad - i should tell me and they'll take me to the doctor. But i don't want to go to the doctor! He asked me if my lungs hurt... i think they do, I feel scared. Hope it'll go away. Taking my medicine, but it seems like doesn't work at all!!!! Wanna cry, don't want to tell my parents that i'm sick, they'll get upset.
Because i'm sick i'm not allowed to leave the house, so i couldn't go shopping and to the movie with M and his family today... he's going tovisit me in the morning 2morrow and we'll watch a movie. I'm glad coz somebody cares........ =(
All my sickness scares me a lot.... don't know what to do and what is right for me... feels really weak...............(((((((((((((((

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ООчень прикольная кнопочка)))))

прикольная кнопочка))

I received an email card from Xena)))))
Things like this always make me smile
According to my tradition i'm placing it here

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Hello my sweet girl! I’m so sorry that I didn’t congratulate you on your birthday! You see, there was smth wrong with my computer! I could only be online today!!! But as you know “better later than never”! Isn’t it?))) So…

Alina! I’ve already missed you and sometimes feel lonely without our meetings, your smile and support. It’s very hard for me, because 2 good people are away from me. But anyway, I’d like to thank you for everything you’ve done for me and wish you a great success in your learning abroad, good true friends (like me;), strong willpower. I wish you good luck, happiness. I want you to be VERY VERY and never cry. I’d like you to laugh and smile every time when smth is wrong! And please… be good girl!!!=))) Happy Birthday!!! I wish you many happy returns of the day!!!!

omg! this is so sweet!

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КОго зовет ветер?

Интересно, кого зовет ветер? Почему он разрывается, проникает в все щели, гудит и воет за окном? Он кго-то ищет? Ищет и не может найти?...Он вздымает снежное покрывало,раздувает волосы, распахивает настеж двери... Но так и не найдя того,кого искал, продолжает завывать....В его порывах слышатся звуки отчаянья... Крик... Беспомощный и от того такй яростный!... Иногда он притихает и начинает тихо плакать,и нежно гладить по шее,голове... Но потом снова в воздух взлетают клубы мерцающих даже в темноте снежинок... И ветер снова начинает звать....
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Hello everybody!
how are you doing, how is everrything?
I didn't go to school today and it wasn't my idea not to go. I'm sick and tomorrow i have only halfday at school and then - winterbreak! It's so unfear that on my Orthodox Christmas I'll have school here. (January 7th)
I can't speak at all, was sleeping till 11 in the morning instead of usual 5:30.
It's very quiet here... Only my host Dad is at home, but he's working upstears and Misty, noisy snoring dog is here.
I have my play tonight at 7. I don't wanna go, coz i have a singing part in it... Anyway, i'm able to dance..... I'd better stay in bed. I'm sick for the first time here (i mean sick like this). Feels wierd staying at home at a school day. Here it's a very serious issue.
I got an email from my Daddy!!!!! It's so nice how he writes)))))) Makes me smile.
Большая просьба-напиши пару строк мне на работу.Мы готовимся к
переезду-пригласили гостей на это воскресенье,днем на три часа,теперь
нужно навести порядок и закупить продукты.Я буду жарить шашлык-ПРИЕЗЖАЙ
!!!!! Хотя летом,когда ты вернешься,будет все еще лучше-во дворе
зацветут цветы,а сейчас все завалено снегом!
Here theris no snow. At all, at Christmas might be some, but nobody's sure (just like nobody was sure in the snopwstorm on my birthday.)
Thinking and trying to plan what i'm gonna do at the break. I want to do as much as possible.
M came over my house yesterday. It was really nice of him. I couldn't talk a lot that's too bad! Well, anyway i told him - see, you come over now just when i'm sick! He said well, it's faster.
It was so comfortable to put my head on his shoulder and watching him holding my hand with his hands... I thought I can sit like this forever. When you're sich, anyone is dreaming of moments like these. He was joking and telling the stories, and joking, it's just so nice to hear the sound of his voice. Then I fell asleep for a minuter or so, he was talking to Ashlyn and my host mom.
At ten, when it was time for him to go, i was gonna say it was nice to see you finally (for the first time this week), but i couldn't. Then I tryed to say nevermind...same thing - no sound. And then M said I love you too. Too??? I got so comfused of this too! too... I didn't say I love you. Well, I didn't say anything.
If he'll tell me if I want to get back together i'll say NO.
And I have million reasons. Well, the voice inside is telling me, riminding about all the great time we had together.
BUT! we souldn't have taken a break. If 2 people like each other - they should stay together. At least if one of them is a problem... they should break up.
What happened between us is absolutely senceless. And now he thinks that i love him......

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* the phrase "don't pay attention to my voice" I said coz i'm kind of sick and it's hard to speak.

PS I need your comments!!!!!!