В колонках играет - Linkin Park - Given Up
Настроение сейчас - Don't wanna talk about it

18.05.2007
The reason I wanted to get closer probably was the thing that I felt lonely and unhappy….
It’s a usual statement for a human to wish (for) someone who will cater for you, who will say that he cares if you are desperately trying to run away from everything and hide in any corner where no one will be able to find you; who will do anything or at least will try his best to make you smile…….
But it’s so hard to be genuine, even with yourself and say that you’ve fallen for someone. And any attempts in denying obvious things are leading to a failure….. And you start to understand that it’s not like the way it was earlier, it drives you mad, it doesn’t want to get out of your head….
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I wanted to post you a letter, but I’ve forgotten your address……
Frankly speaking, I even didn’t ever know your address……
And if I did, I don’t think it could change anything…..
Though if I could change myself a little bit… THAT could help, though I’m not sure for 100%....

В колонках играет - Soundtrack to Wolf"s Rain
Настроение сейчас - ****))))

Why do things not always work out the way I want them to be....
It seems I don't ask too much just a liitle bit happiness and something that will make me feel better than ever...
Guess it's not too much....THAN WHY CAN'T I GET IT????!!!!
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"Come on, get up, it's time to leave...."
"But it's only 6 a. m., are you nuts??!!! I'm not going to get up only if you ask me to..."

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В колонках играет - Iron Maiden- Running Free
Настроение сейчас - Sleepy....but happy.....))))

I was always told not to leave the things up to the last moment.... I wish I could listen to that phrase more often.....
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You were always taught to be on the top. And it doesn't matter whether it is University or even your own life (even when you are home.....)
But how can't they see that to be the best doesn't mean to be happy???!!!!!!
You've tried to put it into their ears, but they didn't even listen to you....
That's why you behave yourself like a jerk sometimes and don't even think that your phrase or deed could hurt anyone.... not that time...
But noone will say a word for you if something happens... everyone will just turn their backs to you...Don't try to deny you do and say so much things a day that it can't even be recognised by you, I mean, what was said right and what you'd better never tell anyone....
that's you problen for now....though you don't even consider THAT can be a problem, saying that everyone has its pros. and cons., but don't forget that each deed has its result, so you'll have to pay anyway....the question is What price???.....it is obvious that it will cost much more than you suppose.... and that starts worrying me.... Don't even ask Why, I won't tell you anyway.. if I'll have to, I'll lie...cause it's too hard to say...though the answer is so simple.... I HATE WHEN SUCH THINGS ARE HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!

В колонках играет - Scorpions - When The Smoke Is Going Down
Настроение сейчас - Dreamy.........

I hope I'll find a place where I belong someday.........
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"The water is still cold so you'll have to wait some more time.."
"But I'm sick and tired of waiting!!.."
"You're still too short tempered and hopeless)))))" *smiles*
"Was there something funny in the thing I said????!!!"
"Yep, seems to me, I'll have to get used to your way of reacting on every phrase and thing..."
"I don't care if you won't!!"
(" Your way of behaviour is so childish, it sometimes has me in stiches, though I still can't understand what I've found in you and moreover I don't get :why don't you see your good sides and good things you do??.....") *thinks*
"You didn't listen to me again!!! Why are you smiling??!!!"
")))I was just thinking))))"
"Really?? I'm surprised you are able to)))) and what was the deal...or better say the reason of your sudden thinking???.."
"I just wanted to tell you that..."
"What??? I'm listening attentivrly))))!!"
"EEh...I just wanted to say...that....Sky is really pretty today, isn't it????"
"??? And THAT WAS ALL YOU WANTED TO TELL ME????!!! YOU IDIOT!!!! and I thought there was something important, splendid, brilliant,even if it could make me laught....."
("you'll know everything when time comes....but I don't tink you'll feel any relief...though you are still able to change everything...))))")
"You didn't listen to me again!!!!!"
"Who? Me? I was just wondering when we'll have something to eat??))))"
"It's unbelievable!!!! You are always doing things like that!!!! Next time I won't even talk to you...no!! I won't even look at you when you'll be greeting me!!!!!"
("You are still such a child))))))).... I wonder if you ever change.....")
"Why are you smiling all the time????????????!!!!!!!!!!! That pisses me off!!!"
"Songe-Creux)))) But that doesn't change the state of anyting anyway)))) Let's go and have something to eat I'm terribly hungry....besides...it's your turn to make dinner)))))"
"The only thing I hate in this world is YOU!!!!.... And I won't cook anything!!!! I object!!!!."
"I hear that phrase from day to day))) aren't you tired of saying that????"
"I'll stop when You'll cut off saying something like *Songe-Creux* and so on...."
"As soon as you'll stop behaving that way..)))"
"What way????!!!!!!!!!!! I've got absolutely normal way of behaviour!!! The thing that you saved my life doesn't mean that you can do anything you wish and say eveyting you want to!!!!!!!!!!"
"But you still owe me....)))))))))))))))))))))))"
"I HATE THAT SMILE...........!!!!!!!! Stop looking at me that way!!!!!!............ ok, I'll do the dinner........."
"That's better)))))))))) don't forget about the desert)))))"
"Whaaaaaaaaaa......?????!!!"
"You cakes are delicious)))))) I love this part of dinner most of all))))))"
*hardly holding herself* "When the time comes, I'll do everything I want to do with you...Bakara!!!!"
"But till that time I wanna try your desert one more time)))))))))))"
("The first thing I'll do will be erasing that stupid smile from your face!!!!!!") *Hardly visible evil and half desperate look on the face*
"Smells nice....))) )but guess something's missing.... "
"Shut up!!!"
"I'm just kidding)))))))........."

В колонках играет - beyonce
Настроение сейчас - ничего

На самом деле я пишу большие посты. Только дальше моего компьютера они обычно не выходят. Не выходят в основном из-за моего страха. Страха? Перед чем?

Я забросила свой дневник, расположенный в небольшой тетрадке потому что сейчас мне стало намного легче выкладываться в компьютер, чем на бумагу. Мысли возникают, как только пальцы дотрагиваются до клавиатуры. Вы мне не верите, но это только потому, что мои посты в дневнике обычно маленькие, обычные. Я не беру в рассчёт парочку последних, они были скорее исключениями из правил.

В последнее время опять становлюсь истеричкой. Довели меня...

Я подсела на мыльные пузырьки. Книжку читаю, выдуваю мыльные пузырьки, уроки делаю, пузырьки, в комп играю, в инете сижу...

Не знаю. меня это так успокаивает...

Всё с мыльными пузырьками. Они такие клёвые.... радужные... забавные.

Я знаю, я сумасшедшая.

Save water, shower with a friend)))))

A diplomat is a person who can tell you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to a trip.(Caskie Stinnett)

It's really a good day today)))))))) Though there still are things that can make me much happier and help to create the song that would be just perfect....
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В колонках играет - Scorpions- when thesmoke is going down
Настроение сейчас - ))))) I've come back!!!!!!!!!!!

dunno if I'll manage to make a song of it))))
But still if I'll have enough time and will I'll copy with it))))
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As the moon shows you its light
You start the riding in the night
As wind blows you in the face
I know riding is your ace
Burning heart and pure soul
The things you seek for on the whole
Even if they don’t exist
You will believe it till you breathe
While all the people aim for fame
You just live life with no restrain
And in this world so cold and bored
There is a place that touches a chord
There someone is still full of beans
Some there are leeches but NO THINGS
They don’t want just to stand in line
And wait that world will become fine
This place you have looked for so long
And here you may someone to hone
But they’re able to obey
For others they are main prey
Though they seem strong and powerful
It’s still the Land-of-making-fool
And if you don’t find them first
Their lives’ll become as others lost
The strong desire to improve
Will help them make another move
But better keep them far from rage
They’ll know it later then, with age
Not all of them have pure soul
Each will play from now on his role
And in the end you’ll see the truth
That has been always your abuse
Though now you have to find the one
Who how you think will bring undone
All of the things that rot with age
And free this World from evil’s cage.

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Настроение сейчас - Чудное

+20С Греки и гавайцы одевают свитера (если они у них есть)

+15С гавайцы включают отопление(если оно у них есть)

+10С американцев трясёт. русские сажают огурцы огородах

+5С Вы можете видеть своё дыхание. Итальянские машины не заводятся. Норвежцы идут купаться. Русские ездят с опущенными стёклами.

0С В Америке замерзает вода. В России вода загустевает.

-5С Французские машины не заводятся. Русские едут на природу отдыхать.

-10С Вы планируете отпуск в Австралии.

-15С Кошка настаивает спать в вашей постели. Норвежцы надевают свитера.

-17С В Нью-Йорке домовладельцы включают отопление. Русские в последний раз в сезоне выезжают на пикники.

-20С Американские машины не заводятся. На Аляске одевают футболки.

-25С Немецкие машины не заводятся. Гавайцы вымерли. Русские едят мороженое на улицах.

-30С Политики начинают говорить о бездомных. Кошка настаивает спать в вашей пижаме. вы планируете двухнедельную горячую ванну.

-35С слишком холодно, чтобы думать. Японские машины не заводятся.

-40С В Европе не функционирует транспорт. Русские доедают мороженое.

-45С Греки вымерли.Политики реально делают что-то для бездомных.

-50С веки смерзаются, когда вы моргаете. На Аляске закрывают форточку в ванной.

-60С Белые медведи двинулись на юг.

-70С Ад замёрз.

-73С Финский спецназ эвакуирует Санта-Клауса из Лапландии. Русские одевают свитера.

-80С Юристы положили руки в собственные карманы.

-114С Этиловый спирт замерзает. у русских плохое настроение.

-273С Абсолютный ноль, остонавливается атомарное движение. Русские ругаются: "Холодно, мля" и одевают ушанки.

-295С У католиков в аду замерзают черти. Российская сборная по футболу становится чемпионом мира.

В колонках играет - Iron Maiden - Childhood's End
Настроение сейчас - )))))

Every time when you wanna become someone else (even if you know that it won't last long)something's always happening, the thing that will make you regret for the thing you was gonna do((((((((I hate my conscience for that....(((
Soon I'll create new lyrics, I haven't decided whether it'll be in Engish or at last(as my friends say)in Russian. The main problem is if I'll lose the source of inspiration,the lyrics won't appear for a quite long period of time,unfortunately.........
We'll see it in a few days)))))))

ваще ржачное видео. рева жжот

В колонках играет - I fought the law......the law WON!!!!!!!
Настроение сейчас - Have food for thought.....

It is always said that this world is full of colours, but there really are times when you you see everything only in black & white (black is even seen more...) and when someone is trying to tell you that everything is fine and that life is an amazing thing you can only lose yourself in the world of riddles and mysteries whether this person is in his mind on there's really something wrong with you if you didn't feel all right for so long.....

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В колонках играет - Silence))))
Настроение сейчас - Good)))

Seems that things are going to improve...though there always will be things which may not work out right, but still it's all only in your head))))

В колонках играет - Lacuna Coil-The Prophet Said
Настроение сейчас - Confused......

Sometimes you can suddenly reveal the strangest sides of the people you seemed to know for a quite a lond time....
I guess I won't ever be able to understand how it really feels "to wish someone be your own privacy..... "
may be I don't understand something in this life.....
But the only thing I know is that I haven't revealed my dark or bad sides yet....)))))

Настроение сейчас - странно все это

что такое наш мир? это то наша жизнь? это то что мы видим каждый день? нет. нам же объясняли. наш мир МАТРИЦА. да, именно так. осталось только узнать кто ТЫ. кто ты? может быть именно ты агент матрицы? ты то самое существо, которое работает внутри нашего мира и убивает тех, кто чем-то отличается от других. твоя цель найти и уничтожить избранного!!! тогда яуже спрятался. и я не сдамся добровольно. по крайней мере я попробую утянуть тебя за собой.
или же ты такой-же избранный как и я. ты тоже знаешь кто ты и что ты и что тебя окружает. почему наши жизни так похожи друг на лруга? потому что программы на нас написаны по нескольким шаблонам и только изменены переменные. если ты избранный, то найди меня и мы попробуем все изменить. мы уничтожим агентов и утащим за собой остальных. так что ждите. мы вас спасем

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В колонках играет - silence
Настроение сейчас - Sleepy but happy deep inside

The half of the day has already passed and you haven't done anything....
Sleepy but happy deep inside you are trying to overcome all the difficulties which your University and your own mind decided to give you for today....
Well...the result will be seen in the evening))))))