Yea, i'll write in English just for practice.
First of all, is Thank you, my God for Your love, that is unfailing and everlasting. i'm so happy that You love me even when i'm a very bad girl. In fact you came and died for me giving me a grace. Grace is the only thing that any other religion would be able to offer and i'm very thankful to you for your blood. I love you, and feel that i dont' deserve it, but i'm so happy You still give to me.
Yesterday was one of the worst days in my life. I hated everyone i saw around me. I lost my brother's scarf, i didn't get a job i was hoping for(co-op in first round), i was late for the traine on my way home, i skipped one class to discuss my schedule with my edvisor but we didn't find any desicion, I couldn't publish my website for the MIS class, but when i did half of the links didn't work. It was 'vereniza neudach'. And then i realized how far I'm from You, my Jesus.
But, You're faithfull and you open my mouth so i could pray and you led me out to the high rock, into the your mighty name. And now I feel safe and happy know matter what is going on. I just know that You controls everything. That's kind of strange but today i want to smile to everyone i see. People are so cute. I feel sorry for them if they don't have You and support and hope you can give.
Love You.
I want to worship you.
I want you to open for me the reason why did you put me here in Drexel. Seriosly, I don't see what do you want me to do here. And those things i see, i don't really wnat to do. I'm ashaimed, scared, lazy. I need you grace and stringh to be able to overcome all of this and tell people about You.