Just don't understand why? Why didn't i get any jobs, any of those that i liked. Father, i'm very sad, please, fill my heard with the trust and your peace, please. I'm upset, I'm very upset. I don't understand what are you trying to do with me. Are you trying to teach me to trust you, but for me it seems I already trust you a lot. Not enough? But it hurts to go through this problems. Just don't understand. Now, i understand that i cant' get all of thouse jobs, but i wanted. Why cant't i get any of thouse? Is it because i've been asking you to make it easy for me to choose.
Father, just give me your peace, and more faith in your word. Jesus, I don't get it. What about a Black Rock? I have insentive to start panicing and start doing everything my way. Sorry. I just want to start calling people i know can help me and beg them for a job, but i'm not gonna do it. I just want to wait for your answer.
I can't go if i dont' know where to go, so i'm just waiting.
Ju 4ekayu.
I'm waiting for you.
Black Rock, you brought me that job, from the person i never thought. so may be you just strenthning my faith, like Abraham's. But I will be honest, from the human perspective, i'm disappointed, but as your child, i belive that anything you give is best for me, and i beilive that you have something better for me, so other plans. Help me to trust you more, Jesus give me more confidence in you, right now, so i would be able to say thank you for something i don't like.
God thank you, that i didn't get the job in B round. Thank you. It sounds wired, but i want to thank you, that you didn't let me go to some places, that would be best place for me.

Love you, my God, my Father.