"-You do not love anyone!
You never have loved anyone.
I'm sure you never will!
You love your purity, you love your mirror - you just like a little virgin, you walk around with your hands in front of you? as though you have some precious metal, gold, silver, rubies maybe diamonds down there between your legs!
You will never give it to anybody. You will never let anybody touch it - man or woman. You want to be clean. You think you came here covered with soap and you think you will go out covered with soap - and you do not want to stink, not even for 5 minutes in the mean time."
James Baldwin "Giovani's room"