This is definitely a new page in my life, there are many physical changes too, I am not too much into symbolism, but it’s all pointing clearly at the major change.
This week I am feeling a bit down. Harry was here 3 evenings in a raw to get his belongings from the loft.. he was terribly rude the very first night.. he managed to through me out of balance as well.
The last two nights were peaceful, he got everything and today he got the movers in and all his things are gone. My living room is empty.. I don’t even understand how I feel about it. I’ts strange first of all. I know I do not regret about the furniture or any other material objects, I am not attached to them.. still can’t say I am happy.. or unhappy.. just a lit disturbed, there is no turning back. I do not even know why I let him take everything. I just let it happen, I can not fight anymore, that must have been the easier option just to let go?
I do not want him to be back ever again, he wanted to return to pick up small items, I said no, we made the list and I will put these items out for him. He has several boxes full of beautiful new glasses, but yet he asked me to give him half of those cheap Tesco glasses that we bought together. I will never understand.
I will also be changing desks at work tomorrow, so all will be different from now on, what I do at work, the way my house looks, the extra time that I am finally going to have.. new friends, freedom, great Salsa nights too.. no money or more money? How will things turn out?
I need to get my life re-organized, piles of unsorted papers are bothering me, but the worst is Natasha’s album, I still have not finished it, it’s dreadful...

After Nicola’s pictures I am doing nothing else but her album, that’s it!
Still very positive about the future. I take comfort when I think of my new male friends Joe and Sam.. it’s nice to feel that they can help me if I call them, though I never will.
I guess I am sad.. but excitement will certainly follow, I will get everything I want!