Have realized that I am not keeping up with my records, and yet there is a lot that deserves mentioning.
I am feeling really good, and on many nights excitement keeps me awake, happiness just overwhelms me and I am not even tired the next day. Yet, not everything is sorted out yet, on the contrary there is still a lot to fight about (the hardest bit- getting him out of the house is still not sorted), but I feel liberated inside, and I started attracting a lot of positive things back into my life, it's been unbelievable. All of a sudden I started meeting new people. Anywhere - through friends, on the train, in the shops.. And I have found many old friends with whom I have lost touch for many years. First Sasha Mosin found me through "odnoklassniki", and then it just would not stop, I found my ex-classmates from 11th Internat, and then I tried to find Artem, and 2 days later he found me.. And then someone who was with us in Sousse found me through odnoklassniki too! Every day I get messages from someone who is happy to find me, and it's all great fun. Anton Krasnov told me that boys in our class were all in love with me and we used to kiss through a cloth. It was so funny that someone remembers that. And Sveta Sizova told me she still remembers my father, and how he used to come every Wednesday night and told us stories.
At home it's been weirdly calm the last few days. After all the turmoil and fights over settlement last week, which we did not reach at the end, Harry has decided to behave nicely.. He is normal and polite and does not bother me too much (still a little bit, but it's surely bearable). And we even cleaned the house together, and it's back to normality after a state of ultimate mess. Still I have made up my mind and sent the occupation order application yesterday. At first I did not feel comfortable about this idea. But when he did not want to discuss the possibility of having a different settlement, still for the same amount but over 2 years, I made up my mind to go ahead with it. I do not know if it will work, but I will not loose anything if I try. Once I know the outcome, I will decide on the next step. In the meantime I make sure I live a full and happy life every day. And it has been the case lately, I even manage to do some things in the evenings during the week. Drove to have dinner at Alex B's place two weeks ago, and had a pub outing last week. And doing venture viewing tonight. Also lots of fun activities on the weekends - day with Thomas was great fun, Venture photo-session and the visiting friends all the time. And still taking lots and lots of photographs. And I registered my company last week, so no turning back! And I signed up to attend the photographic convention in January, and have lots of plans and projects and work, and I love it. Almost finished the photo-gift for Alex B, I think she will be impressed. Sent off almost all my Moscow photo-shoots, and everyone said that they liked the photos. And I even had my first sale - the newly-weds from Kolomenskoye agreed to buy my photos. Though the money went to my family, it feels like my new life of making a living from photography has had it's start.