How can it be? You're so far and so close at the same time....It's unfair and unusual....I hate the distance, i hate you. i hate your girlfriend and the names Anna!!!!I hate myself, i hate my weakness, i hate my minds and my desires.I have to be strong and tough, but it's sooooo difficult!!!! God, help me, please....I want to stop it...to stop these thoughts....I want to leave, but not to exist....I hope you heard me now...I'm finished...