Today I had a mix of strong emotions...I cried alone after my friends hugged me and gave me presents. I think I cried coz in my deep inner I was sure that I didn’t deserve such love like that. Janaína wrote so tender words in a card...she did: "Den, dream high above and stare at the sky. If you miss the target, at least you will be among the stars". I loved it and I didn´t know I am so emotive.

Also today I went to a travel agency to buy the ticket...during the way I was so confuse...I stopped for several times and even I thought to come back...indeed I did. But I changed my mind and once again I went back to travel agency...my mind was in a fog...I couldn’t see a good reason to go to Russia once more; all of the good "friends" from there aren’t a reason enough for I do this. You know, I am almost sure that you won’t meet me...I am so afraid of...Then, I closed my eyes and I allowed my heart to whisper: "go man, go! If she doesn’t meet you, at least you tried to". So, I did it, I tried don’t think about my act...if you do not me, the wait will have been worth anyway.

You know, nearly two weeks ago, I knew a girl from St Pet. She’s has been married with a Korean but he left her and went back to South Korea. She told me that he just used her while he was studying for Master degree. Do you believe that all of the foolishness that I told during one year, she did in just two weeks? )))) I got amazed and astonished. My mistakes came over me once more : ))) I look at her words and I remembered of you. It comforted me. Now I can to understand how you felt yourself. I always knew that I was the guilt for you having stopped communication, but now I can see my mistakes in details. I try to be tender and sympathetic. She’s not crazy, but just lonely...just like I was. There are so many lonely people in internet... Please, think about the possibility for we meet, ok? I don’t hope anything more than a couple of minutes; if it takes, I´ll be happy. Just let me look at your eyes and see that I wasn’t wrong, but just made a misunderstanding