I think that yesterday was a last scene, which Ora made me in this life. I cannot say that she pissed me off. I just was really astounded. Besides all, she imparted me with a smile that all twenty five years wasn't happy with me and so on. I didn't find what answer, and actually may be didn't want. I consider her behavior as a meanness. I know, she is enamoured. That is why she is permanently comparing me inside her consciousness with her object of love. She as all stupid enamored idiots is idealizing him and thinking that with him life will be looking like a honey with milk. And at the same time she is just wasting time with me. Well, it is her stupidity, not mine. I got to my last frontier. I don't want anything else. I just want to purchase today a divorcing kit and fill it up and go away... Wherever... Forever.