What if I find myself between the fire and ice?
What if I lose myself in struggle with desire?
What if I’m going like a magnet to the fire?!
And cannot tear off ice that shines in azure skies!
What if I realize that ice is getting colder?
What if I feel it’s freezing touch so deep inside?!
What if I’m getting madly anxious for the fire?
What if I’m craving for some agonizing light?..
For sparkling ardeur that shall burn our most existence!
What if my heart is beating faster on a distance
For dark excitement, meeting almost no resistance?
Conceals the mind, and then my horses rush in blind
To where devil, smiling, promises delight…
What if I find myself between the fire and ice?
What if so tangled that one step can push the handle?
And no way out, it’s only left to light the candle
For nearness… for memories and cries…
What if that weird flaming ruinous obsession
Is the beginning of my inner decompression?!
What if the tongue forgets how loving sense is spoken?
What if emotions tell that something now is broken?
What if the swamp is not just thick but deadly pleasing?
The cold denies – the fire wisely kissing…
The cold is vanishing, the fire’s touching, calling!
What if I turned the bloody sign of “Warning”?!
What if there’s no return?.. I’m on the wire…
But who shall take the prize: love ice or lusting fire?..
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