last night described in a few words: friends + alcohol, fun, meeting tim, happiness, smiling, bar, drinks, tim flirting, jealousy, anger, get rid of of the girl, pride, stupid questions, heartache, pain, tears, anger again, confusion, second discussion, tears, sadness, tiredness, going away, frustration, shouting/screaming peace wild sex, cigarette, thinking, sex again, sleep, laughing in the morning and now thinking what to do...
im sure he's not in love with me... he's not taking me seriously and never will... soon we will break up again... i wish i could leave but i can't so it's gonna be him leaving... he thinks i want to marry him... i never even thought about it until he brought it up... to be honest, i could spend my life with him, but that's just a thought, it's not my desperate goal to achieve... but it really hurt when he said "i would NEVER marry you!!" i mean, how heartless do u have to be to say something like that??? it's like "yeah baby, sex is good, ur cute, we can fuck around for some time, but hello, i don't want you in my life..." i know that, but i don't want to hear it all the time!!!!!! love sux...
can someone please hit me in the head with a brick and destroy my memories so i wouldn't feel anymore?!?