last night was weird... i totally freaked out... but at least i know what's going on... tim is seeing other girls... very soon he will sleep with somebody, since he already bought condoms... so i guess it's really time to stop running after him... there's no chance... like he said we are not meant to be... last night was our last time ever... no more kisses, touches, no more sex with him!!!!!! oh god, even hard to imagine, but i'll be strong... hopefully...
i left without saying goodbye... he was sleeping... didn't wake him up cuz he would've made me stay... switched off my phone... no contact... i need some time alone... to get over him, to forget and stop waiting...