i have to confess, cannot keep it inside any longer... last night i had sex with someone, who's name cannot be mentioned due to my paranoid way of thinking... yep... it was weird... but i had a nice time and gained my confidence back!!! on the emotional level i am confused, have no idea what am i supposed to feel... cuz i love Tim, and eventhough we are not together, i still feel like i cheated on him, or did something wrong... but then again, Tim is not an angel... he had sex already too... aaaaaaaaaaaa... i just feel so weird right now... and paranoid... but in a way sort of relaxed... ???... fuck it. GUILTY!!!!!!!!