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im playing with fire these days.. i know i will never do anything that i might regret later, but my emotions are screwed up, and im so lonely so i demand company.. began to hang out with jeff and nino.. mainly we discuss their music while drinking.. and in a way im getting addicted to them.. trying to hold on to anything that reminds me of tim.. and they were his friends.. they remind me of him a lot.. i think im going crazy..
this rock star lifestyle is addicting.. during this week i got drunk 3 times, twice in a row.. and i enjoyed it.. i can see why tim wanted to spend his time with those guys.. it's just at the end of the night im going home alone.. no one is waiting for me.. this loneliness is becoming unbearable.. i want to see tim, i want him to be here, with me, next to me, always.. i miss him very much..
i just wish time would go faster so we could be together again..