i feel so tired... tired of life... somehow lost my interest in everything i belived.. but i don't want to die, i just don't care at the moment... it seems like im depressing everyone around me.. meybe the cause of problems is really me.. maybe i lived in a dreamworld where love existed.. cuz for almost two years now i thought i found my love... i thought that someone actually cared for my worthless being.. and now im confused.. im not sure anymore... i mean why would anyone fall in love with me? what can i possible give in return? histerical yelling, oceans of tears, ugly looks, fucked up past and a body full of scars.. none of that is positive or happy... all i do is complain and push away the people i love... im full of shit.