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to be exact: we almost broke up.. the reason was sarah's newest attempt to break us up... that bitch dared to bring another friend from germany, Nina, to hook her up with Tim... almost succeeded cuz later on i found a notebook with tim's writing saying a lot of painfull shit such as "i must leave katya" and "i felt for nina but wouldn't kiss her"... couldn't read more cuz my mind went crazy, i thought i'd have a stroke and die, could literally feel the unbearable heart-ache, like it was breaking for real.. never cried so hard in my whole life.. memories of last summer attacked and i just lost the touch with reality..
we had a HUGE fight.. but didn't get to the conclusion cuz tim got sick.. he's in the hospital now.. im trying to do everything possible to make him feel better but it's hard.. im still angry.. and scared.. i made him choose between me and sarah and im afraid he won't choose me...
but we don't talk about it now... he's got problems with health and i don't want to stress him... so we're back where we were.. ignorance.
i just hope he'll get better soon, cuz staying in the hospital kills him... and watching him suffer kills me..