jeff is back... the crazy, all night drinking parties are slowly creeping in... have to strenghten my nerves, avoid fighting, give Tim the space he needs... it's pointless to say anything, he wouldn't understand... jeff is his GOD.. and so jeff's whore is his goddess... i gave up fighting about it long time ago... and have to accept that as long as they are present in Tim's life, i'll be only a second-best for him..