pozvonila mame, skazala chto poshutila, naschet zamujestva. Ya ne ostanus v etoi Amerike. Uvidela Chudo....Kak radostno i horosho mne stalo, spokoino....

V golovu prihodyat mysli, chto eto ya sama ebe vse pridumala.....Kakoe-to chustvo, mne kajetsya chto ya jivu v skazke, kakoi-to illuzii.

NO moi vibor sdelan.....ya tak reshila, daje esli stradat pridetsya--ya privikla k boli, pessimistichnii nastroi..................................................................................................................pustota, neizvestnost, vzglyad pryamo i ojidanie CHUDA............ILI chuda...........