i cant study, fucking crash......

talked to irina yesterday, she said i sound and act desperate, sadly, but i am

and the scariest thing is that i am trying to run away from myself : i even have a plan in my head already,  -----i actually have a few, either to go to spain, to urkaine or  take my car and drive to another state just to be by myself.....

scary, haha, now that i read it over, i realize what an idiot i am......

p.s. she is my great friend , and joe offered his help with my emotional problems, he said he is a great listener and if i need someone to talk, i can call him............funny....

i feel like i am a walking case for a psychologist

fuck it all - after monday i will be a grown up