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I fucking love this song. Fucking perfect for me. Every line means something to me. The first time I heard this song, I burst into tears...


“Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you”

~No one does understand. No one. There isn’t anyone who knows what I think about and what I deal with. No one who can relate to me, no one I can share this with, no one who will understand. There’s been so many times that I’ve wanted to give up, so many times that I’ve figured that I’m just not right…

“Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
but no one hears you screaming”

~ Love to run away. Go somewhere where it’s ok to be me. I spend my time in my room. Blasting my music and sitting on my bed against the wall… just thinking. Crying, thinking, wanting to scream. Yup. Sounds about right.

“No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me”

~ People can say they know how I feel. They can say they understand. No. They don’t. Plain and simple. No one does.

“To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life”

~ Hurt. Lost. Left. Pushed around. Breaking down. No one to help. No one knows. I think this song was written for me sub-consciously.

“Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over”

~ Someone else? YES PLEASE! Desperate for something more? OH YES.

“Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding”

~ I hate this world. I hate being this way. I hate everything. I’m sick of people telling me it’s ok blah blah blah. Shut the hell up.

“No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me”

~ Nope. No one knows what it’s like. No one can understand when nothing is right.

“To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life”

~ I hate people who’ve screwed me up. Thank you Travis. Thank you for screwing me up. Thank you for putting me on 3 different pills a day. Thank you for making me see a therapist every week. Thank you for making me see a “Specializing” therapist in Calgary. Thank you for all that.

“No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay”

~ Heh. I’m a pretty damn good actress aren’t I? I can put on my little smile and bouncy, bubbly personality and Ta da! You have Ayla. Lucky for me, I took acting lessons.

“Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like”

~ I envy everyone who has their life worked out. They know who they are, what they are, and where they’re going. Fuck that sucks.

“To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like [x2]

Welcome to my life [x3]”

~ Welcome to my life.