I had my first official CA staff meeting today. It was pretty good. I was so freakin' nervous!!!

I went over there right on time. I went to the dorm office and asked where the meeting was and the guy was like, "here." oh. I felt dumb. I started talking to a girl she is a freshmen too and a first time CA. She was pretty nice. But she knew some of the other CA's and when they showed up she wasn't talking to me any more.

I just felt so out of place! It didn't help that my boss kept calling me Martha. I was like, "No, that girl is tall and blonde and totally not me. And she left an hour ago."

I got some mentors and some projects to keep in mind for the fall. I can tell it is going to be work but it is going to be fun. I was so quiet at the staff meeting, totally not me. I was just so scared. I'm sure it'll wear off.

And I found out what floor I am going to be on! I will be on the 9th floor (out of 12) and in room 21. The girl that lives there now told me there is a great view. So I am exicted. Yeay.

They gave us a book to read. That made me chuckle. (I am already reading 5 books over summer and Stephen wants to read a book with me and I will be working and doing summer school.)

And we have a Theme. it is 'Movin' on up' because our dorm in a high rise. It's cute, but I did't vote for it.

I hate all this CA stuff though. I feel horrible that Stephen didn't get the job (he deserves it!) and he gets so angry when I talk about it. But I am so nervous and exicted about it and I have so much to say about it. but I don't want to hurt him.

Yesterday was the last WSO meeting of the semester. I went for 30 minutes. We handed out our goofy awards. Ari dropped me off at Stephen's. (She is so cool, I can't wait to get to know her better!)

When I got to Stephen's at 7:40ish, he wasn't there. I even went up to his room and he wasn't there. I went to the Student Union and he wasn't there. I went all over the parking lot and he wasn't there. So I started to go back to my place, in tears. Not fun.

He was at Wal-mart and the lines were long and there was traffic and he got back late. I wasn't so much mad as my feelings got hurt. I had no clue where he was. And I knew if it had been me that was late, he'd have ripped me a new one.

He bought me some taco bell to make it up to me so that helped. And he was having a bad day. His computer is on the fritz. I don't know what is wrong with it but it's messed up. I just hope nothing happens to my computer. It is finals time after all.

So I have a history final on Thursday. Trig final is on Friday. Speech final is on Tuesday. I turned in my english paper and don't have a bio final (b/c I got out of it) So I just need to study for history and Trig. This is proving to be very difficult though. Wish me luck*