Someone asked me a while ago how I deal with things. Its quite simple really, whenever I get hurt, or upset, or anything similar, I turn it into anger. Anger I can handle, in lots of ways. I can hurt other people, though I feel worse about it afterwards than I did to begin with. I can hurt myself, which really helps, but I've been asked not to do that so I won't. Or I can just hit things, which calms me down for a little while. I guess I'm gonna be stuck just hitting things for a while.

So much going wrong. I'm not exaggerating when I saw that nothing seems to be going right. I might not be able to afford the CI course at this rate. So desperate to just give up, don't know why I can't, but I'm not allowed.

Bunny