It's not easy to be the person who I am. I really hate myself in such moments. And suddenly my thoughts about that open window on the third floor don't seems so stupid anymore.
Of course, I always knew that I'm just a silly girl with my silly fears. But now...when everything in this world meens only YOU for me - now I have only one fear. And every day I need to be rational. I give different advices to myself (just like Alice did), but I can't follow it, simply, without any good reason..
Ok, everything is fine. Because I want it such way. I need just a little help to become better for you.
And I'll do my best, I promise.