opened a few of my closed entries..... nothing to hide anymore.......


getting all confused by meself. had a few good chats with Chris. it really helped, but there is still stuff that i dont understand, and noone apart from me can sort out. mood swings are getting unbearable, dont know what i want anymore...... nothing helps. paranoid, anxious, panicky, cant find any peace of mind. trying to hide-from myself, from the world. no energy left, no strength to deal with the outside world... how do you run away from yourself?