i think im ok...... kinda happy, im a fragile way. holding on to little things. hit another all-time low, then my body dragged itself out and bitchslapped itself about a bit. so im trying. maybe spring is taking over little by little after all. maybe ill be ok in the end.....

other arent good. life is a bitch, you either try to drag yourself out, and maybe succeed, or try to help others, and fail. the hardest choice i ever have to make. this time last year i promised i will take care of myself and wont let anyone hurt me anymore. HA......

well, im going to take advantage of feeling ok while it lasts, since it wont last for long.