Меня уже тошнииит от перечитывания этих лекций. Они никогда не закончатся!
Actually, there are only 6 of them left, but oh God how much I don't wanna read them! and think them over! I feel sick about it
But hopefully it is gonna be over in a week. Ironically, as well as me being 18. I am turning 19 next Friday.
I wonder if something is gonna change.
I swore to myself that by the time St.Valentine's come, I will have a boyfriend. But I really don't know how to make it come true. I mean, look at me! It is kind of obvious now that something like that won't happen easily. 19 years of real proof, hah. I wonder if I can still make it. I would love to love!
But how to make it come true.

well, today I have to accomplish 2 things. 1: make a list of people I would like to see at my 19s birthday. 2: finish the lish of lections on linguistics. It is already 17:20, and I haven't done a single thing. so I guess I'd better be going know, don't I? haha
I like how I can tell this diary things that would annoy people in real life 'caus nobody likes listening to other people whining. But here I can do it. I mean, I have 0 people reading this stuff, but still there is a possibility that one day somebody will read it. And somehow it changes everything. You know, YOU) And I like it very much. I mean, I like possibility. I am totally crazy about possibilities, I could marry them! that's the stuff you hear from a lonely introvert.

What should I do for my birthday? I want to do something both totally crazy and really comfortable to me. And it is not possible, so I am kind of puzzled, hah. Should think about you! Unless one of you guys who do not read this at all gives me a great advice. Looking forward to it!

Anyway, gotta go. Should do at least something today. See ya! Love ya! you. really do. love you very much. I mean it.
luuuuuuuuv

P.S. some songs are better to be listened at night, isn't it?