"My Love Story...
Yesterday I was scared. I was scared because I thought that I had no love for him. I felt numb, like I didn’t care at all, even though he had opened up to me and communicated in a way that he hasn’t much before. I really appreciated that.
today I realized that maybe I had lost sight of loving myself (again) and that is what paralyzed me.
I also think that both him and I find it a bit difficult to truly accept that the other person cares; whatever ‘type’ of love this is is not really important. I am not sure if it is ‘romantic’ love; it could change, but I have to be careful not to force it.
I find that when I open up in certain ways, when I am happy with myself, he is more open and happy. its so true.
sometimes I feel that he doesn’t ‘give’ enough in this way. but more and more I realize that maybe we just need to accept the way things are more. we fit together right now. sometimes its not perfect, but we just do. and we both tend to resist this, like we believe we (as individuals) dont really deserve it.
mostly I believe I do, but deep down there is a part that truly believes otherwise.
I suppose that most people feel like this at one time or another"...