You know what my dear angel. Everything is so perfect down there. I just had a brilliant moment with dogs when I went outside and there was only one star shining, I hugged Kayla and Laika and thought about my future. I have a nice feeling, just saying. Even though I broke up with my boyfriend, even though I am failing Biology. Fuck it all. I will live it up baby! I promise I will! otherwise I will cry for this time in 50 years, when I wasted my time on things like crying about boys. Boys are bastards. Sex and all that stuff counts too... Oh yes. I wanna try it BUT it's not gonna become the biggest part of my life. I was drinking French champagne and eating fresh raw fish with soy sauce. Oh baby. 

And you know my ex...maybe only maybe i am tipsy and stuff. But stop fucking my brain with love that has passed. Gimme place for my own universe inside of me, inside of my heart. Not a tiny little planet. I need time. You need time. For now I just want to make out and cuddly cute things. Fiiine, you don't need me, I don't need you. I promise myself to get over you. Haha. Really. 

You are not exceptionary example of my relationship. You are unique just like everyone else. I liked you more than any boy in the world. You did not cherish the place that I took in your heart. I am taking it back. It was too much.

Tomorrow IMMA go shopping and IMMA go do manicure and do the best literature project. I just need something to think about. If I will have new PE outfit, I will be working out. I will be flirting with Gert and I will look what Zhami wears to get some ideas about style. She is my idol of a true style. Her and Agata. Ah. Wanna! 

I am happy about my face, my age, my family, myself, my school, my things that I have, the attention and love that I get, my grades and my freakingly awesome waist! Oh I adore it. Especially when I'm wearing a black bra. It looks just oh yeeeh. I wish you could see me right now. I wish you could pick up the jaw from the floor. I am so wearing heels tomorrow to go shopping. I will be so cool. Oh oui oui oui oui. And then I will go to university in Europe and get a boyfriend like that hotty from Frituur or the North sea. I will make out with him and everyone is gonna be like oh look at them. He will cherish every inch of my body. He will adore every second he spends with me and I will too. I will adore him. I will get that boy-toy, I will be outta troubles. Tomorrow is 10/10/10 I will make the most epic wish ever. MAKE A WISH! 

imma go home and live it up. have fun and buy new lipstick. gosh. 

xxx bye bye homie;)