Глупое чувство. Глупо то, что я всё бросила. Глупо то, что я теперь могу выражать себя только по английскому.
I know this is real boredom that I write. I know this really doesn't matter. But I want it to say.
This is my today) Heh)
I have oversleeped first lesson. It was the same as the second - English. I cannot understand this feeling. It's like am over. I even don't mind about sleeping for the whole day. But, suddenly I recalled, that today I'm have to get my student's record book sign. I wasn't pretty sure that I pass because I had been absent for so many S.L. lessons! Luckly, only 3 students failed and other (so and I) passed because of our presence on mostly all this lessons.
Strangely, nobody even bothered me when I turned up late at the 2nd lesson. Am I steel here? They would better scold me 'cause I don't feel like I'm existing. I even pass this unit 80/100 - B??? How that is possible? My friend omit one single written test and she scored 73/100 - C??? Bullshit!
I was so lucky today, that I even successfully paid for my education in 15 min!
Today I was hot!
That after lessons I have long conversation with Inga and Alina. Goddamn, I've eaten too much sweet. I've almost puked. I felt miserably. Then that fuckin' idiot called us "beavers". I know, that 'cause he despise me. I hate my fuckin' duty.
Then in my way home in tube I've met old friend of mine. I've not seen him for a donkey years! He was my schoolfriend (from our trio). But he sinked in his hatred for the whole world. So I didn't get in touch with him since last summer. I've changed, I know it. He was so disappointed in it. He formulated it like I've got out of hand. I am just not so shy anymore. I'm different. Thanks to my new good friends I'm not so reserved. Finally, he asked me to call him. I know, but I felt like he's not gonna treat me like old friend - I mean... is he interested in me? No, more possible that I steel have this mania) I answered "maybe'.
Have I done like a shitty whore? Hope no...
On my way home I've brought a special grass for my cat. I don't know how it's called.
Then I've been learning whole day. Not because I like it - mom worked whole day at the computer.
And now I recollecting everything that happened today. I feel like I am over.
I would like to fuck it all. But I don't know how. I know things that would help me with that and also harm me, but I don't want them. I just want to get away from it all. Call it a protest.