no difference.
no real.
no me. as ever been.

this makes no sense. saying the truth to myself. knocking on the ever-closed door.
telling nobody. hey!!! helloooooo! can you even hear me?
you.
я все испортила. я все испортила. i've mixed everything up.
i've fucked it up.
i've been there all time long.
no. not always.
there would be a time with sunny weather.

i'm not alive. im dead. im gone. this is it.