So it has turned out, that the most important and courageous words I can speak all only in nonnative language.
Can, I do not have not enough boldness to tell it in Russian.
But more likely another. For me Russian "Я тебя люблю" and other are already so bedraggled and polluted, that English "I love you" sounds sincere and is more fair.
From English words I yet have not learned to clean emotion that dry ascertaining of the fact turned out.
They still sound.
Trust only to my English. To my awful English.