Sometimes I get really tired of being the reasonable person who thinks about the future. Sick of that perfect boy without bad habits, problems and mistakes that everyone see. There are moments when I want to say “Just FUCK this all”, and become one of that mindless cocaine-happy cold boys who lives just one day – today. Fuck university. Fuck my family. Fuck the future. Just dance, dance, dance, have sex with every cock-owner in my field of view and poison myself with every shit that a man can poison himself with. Just forget about everything. Forget myself, disappear in a dim lights and pumping sounds, in alcohol and stranger’s embraces. Be like a moth gorgeously dying in a flame of sin. Mother’s nightmare. Dirty fantasy.
Sometimes I want to destroy everything I am. I love this word – destroy. I think it’s beautiful…

Да, про себя. Не знаю, почему мальчик. Не знаю, почему на английском. Наверное он воспринимается мной как язык Party Monster, Чака Паланика, Уилльяма Берроуза и кокаиновых королев. It's more flexible and sinful, than Russian. Just fuck it. I can be weird and pathetic for somebody. Right now I DON'T GIVE A SHIT.



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