i want to spend a night with you. in bed. to lie with you hugging me. to hug you. to feel your warmth. to feel you touching me. to stroke you. i know it would hurt me after all. and i know i cant change your feelings if you dont want us to go on. if you dont feel the same. the same as i feel. if you dont want me.
but its so insane. i got so insane. its too far gone. i need it. i feel like i can go mad. seriously. its not funny.

one day. one night. it will hurt me so much. but its better than what i feel now anyway.