you know, it took me long to believe you. too long. i knew that i loved you and i knew that i wanted only you. but even the previous summer. i wasnt believing you completely. i couldnt believe that all that things were real. that you were telling the truth. it was just too much for me. for my life. thats why it took me so long. i realize it now. when i met some new girl, i tried to make her like me. i didnt flirt, but somehow conceded that maybe i would like her. and later i think i just was falling deeper and deeper for you. you made me believe. you made me so, that i wasnt taking any girl as more than some female. only you was in my mind. since the autumn. i waited for the summer. again. but with different feelings. stronger. much. i knew that nothing would stop me. i knew that you were what i wanted. i wasnt worrying about anything anymore. i knew that i loved you. genuinely.

it was too hard to believe. to trust. i was afraid that you would tell me one day that everything was just nothing. that you would leave me. it was too hard to be sure.