do you want to know what plans i had on you? i wanted to meet and see how we liked each other and then i was ready to stay in poland even that year. or i was ready to wait till we finish studying and if we wanted to live in russia, i wanted to move to saint-petersburg. or any other country, if you knew where we could live. i was ready to marry you.
i think its so scary what ive just written. but yeah, i really thought so.

you know these stupid letters make me feel better. i just dont need to put dots in the end of each phrase. my heart feels better.

and you know i still dont think that falling in love through internet is bad. i think it has many adventures before meeting in live. the only merit of it its that it can end like it did in my case.

dont lie to me. if you have ever loved me, respect me. you may dont care about me, but i care about you. i want the truth.

i feel so easy now.

im loyal, and im ready to be forever if im loved. will you ever find a sucker like that in poland? that will love you the same?

Ive heard a story recently. its about a boy. he studied in our university, on my faculty. In the first year he met a girl from another town, not far from Orel, about 3 or 4 hour trip. they fell in love with each other and he went to her every week. but then they realised that they coulndt continue it that way. so he moved to her town, after half a year. they got married.

im such a sucker. actually its girls who dream about love and marriage, so funny. *smile* i must have scared you already. im scared too.