stop kissing you boyfrriend im here dying.... write me fucking message...even with the driest words that will hurt me even more... useless shit i am... just trash in a trash bin... yes i was stupid but dont leave me... please...
im not your only one?...anymore...
i really wish some accident happend to me... a car... a brick over my head... whatever... i have been wishing for that for a long time, but never as strong as i wish it now...

why am i not like others?... why do i need to go to extremes?... why did i gave you my heart?.... everyone said that you shouldnt trust anyone... and i thought that i was lucky... special... that i found a special girl... that we were special... you were special... only one... fate?... it was fate?... i thought it was fate that we met... special... speacial girl... for me... only one... in this world... that i dont want to live in...

you go to cinema with him... kiss him during the movie and then fuck in the park after it... he will be your first... and i will die here alone...alone...
how could you say such things?... how could you do it?... how can you fuck him now?... you said you were only mine forever...love has gone?... love... write me fucking message... say you want me back... ohh fuck... why do i say me?... say that you love me still... that you want to fuck wiht me... for the rest of your life... nights long

you need such time in your life?... your life?... i fucking dont care about my life... i wanted to be with you only... only this... i dont care if i dont fuck any girl in my life... i wanted you to be my first and only... fuck it sounds soo stupid... is there a girl that will ever say so? first and only?... that will think the same?... everybody needs such time in his fucking life... i thought i found a special girl... my love from above... angel... you were my angel... too late.. lost