Настроение сейчас - life sucks!

So many "why"s lately...
Why is everything so complicated?
Why can't I just be happy?
Why should I end everything so fast?
Why can't I understand what you're trying to tell me?
Why do I have so many devices to improve my life but they don't help and life still sucks?
Why? Why? Why?
Why don't you love me?
Why don't I love him?
Why... Oh God, why me? Why me? It's the best "why" in my life... There are a lot of strong people, but i'm so weak... So why me? Can't you give all these "why"s to them? They know the way to stand strong... This life is a torture...
I can't speak Russian 'coz I forgot all the words... I burned all my verses... They seemed to be so ugly... They were lie... So ugly and untrue... All the verses except the only one... I hope you remember it... It was about us... Previous "us"... Senı seviyorum, aşkim, sevgilim, bebegim...