Apology

screams of lust we cry
tonight you are everything to me
you're everything...
you're everything to me no more
as I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls
can I not stay and live this lie?
go away and I'll think only of myself

and to think that you would not be scared or surprised if I'd severed all these ties
this is the end...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions...would this be the same?
broken pieces will not mend to save our past now...go away...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

now we must let go
urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

Endings Without Stories

this time I die

our love ruined by your malignance
broken shards of feelings are now just tainted memories left
beautiful dreams that I cherished now are so disgusting as I strangle the light from you

I watched the smile fading from your face
you bled till there was nothing in your veins
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you
its all over now so dry your eyes
there is no forgiveness, be afraid to die
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you

tears fall as your screams of anguish rage throughout the heavens
amidst the penance you must pay
caress this bullet as eyes close to the painful memories you left
consume the rest of me
my vision of you has now turned to dust, your porcelain smile gone

I watched the smile fading from your face
you bled till there was nothing in your veins
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you
its all over now so dry your eyes... there is no forgiveness, be afraid to die
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you

you let me go
you let me go too soon
I love you are meaningless words that slip away as I slit your throat
and I will slit your throat

And They Call This Tragedy

you make me sick

I'll tear out those diamond eyes I can't bear to see
crimson spills on paper skin
they call this tragedy
remembering the nights when you'd whisper to me soft, "forever more my heart is yours"
realize those words have died

as the life fades from your eyes
all that I can say is it may not be too late
try again, make it perfect, make me worth it
or else die for all I care

if I can not be loved then none shall be
think of this as I softly kiss your blood glazed lips once more
on this night this thing you call love dies
your face disgusts me, smile and bear your lies
this broken trust will become your demise

as the life fades from your eyes
all that I can say is it may not be too late
try again, make it perfect, make me worth it
or else die for all I care

after today silence will haunt you
expect no forgiveness for your life will end tonight
now I grit my teeth and finish what I know must be done
to kill the memory of you... and you said this would be forever

as the life fades from your eyes
all that I can say is it may not be too late
try again, make it perfect, make me worth it
or else die for all I care

Not A Single Word About This

I'd push you away but you are the only thing I know

I can't help believing in you... the idea of beauty leaves me enslaved
say you'll stay for tonight and I promise you this will be the last

I'd push you away but you are the only thing I know
at your feet I now lay for you are the only thing I know

I stare blindly into my reflection
a piece of me lost... I am terrified that I cannot breathe without you
I am nothing in my eyes if not lost
I can't see past your eyes, without them I would die
Shackles cut my wrists as I fight the chains
None can hold me

I'd push you away but you are the only thing I know
at your feet I now lay for you are the only thing I know

in a room where I once told you everything, I am alone
once beholden to nothing and no one
how is it that I am slave to these eyes which glisten with untold secrets
that I crave so wildly to understand?
I must steel my heart to your warm gaze
I'll claw out my eyes and see you no more
its because of you I sometimes wish that I would die
sometimes I wish I would die leaving you behind
enraptured by my ignorance, I now deserve sympathy

Red and Dying Evening

you've taken the last of me
the god's of your innocence shall not protect you from the hate of my wrath
you've taken the last of me... blame the end on yourself
you deserve each tear that falls
scratch out your eyes

the blood will drown in red and I will leave you for dead
a lovely evening draped in regret
the shadow of justice now engulfs you
as cold hands reap the pain they've sewn
you've taken the last of me
blame the end on yourself
you deserve each tear that falls
scratch out your eyes

the blood will drown in red and I will leave you for dead
a lovely evening draped in regret
Forever gone
the taste of your death replaced the smell of your breath
a lovely evening draped in regret

suffocate your will to live with my pain
you were so easily seduced by greed
you could never feel my calloused hands closing around your throat
taste your loss
wake into the nightmare that has become our love
may your screams never cease
you've taken the last of me

Congratulations, I Hate You

no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are where you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity... I hate your pity

taste your vanity
its sweet bitterness as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
you took them all
I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

Beautiful In Blue

Silence screams, "you're just so beautiful in blue"
breathless stares escape your undying eyes
are you blind to my sorrow and sympathy?
a piece of me will die with your last breath...
this will all be over soon for you are so lost inside
glazed eyes long for the waves' embrace
drawn to an end so near...

far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
why are you trying to run away?
my love, I can't find the words to tell you...

drown all of your fantasies with your final broken promise
silent angel crashes through sky, having lost sight of the stars

regail me with your tales of lonely, bittersweet loss
giving up comes to easy when hope is gone
I'll walk away so you can choke on your dying breath
but if you side against me, to hell with you...

far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
why are you trying to run away?
my love, I can't find the words to tell you...

the fear has stolen her heart as she wakes from her dream
treacherous ink finds her lungs, seizing her screams
numb hands now reach too late to take back the light

far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
why are you trying to run away?
my love, I can't find the words to tell you...
far away are days when you smiled...
seas cry out butchering this tragic soul without hope
their frailty is broken and now fades into the blue...

Ambrosia

A touch of poison seals my fate
the dawn echoes the night with my glory...the sun himself honors me

once king of roses, now lord of gold
the Gods themselves envy my hand
blessed with the gift of gilded touch
fate wields its knife to cut the thread

I curse the day my dream became my descent
suddenly I long for you, my only love

in my perfection I have no want
yet eyes still glint with greed untold
a folly as fatal as sin has now become the end of me

I curse the day my dream became my descent
suddenly I long for you, my only love

have I not earned this, the gift of beauty within?
how selfish were the Gods to keep their riches from my rightful treasure?
I truly have become one of them...my fatal flaw

oh yeah! Ive got her hook, line, and sinker!
thanks to me, shes her own new necklace!
now shes good as gold!

I curse the day my dream became my descent
suddenly I long for you, my only love

...cut the thread...

Alchemy Sounded Good At The Time

My darling queen, I lay myself at your feet
and I shall stay the hands of fate

wind cries out, heavens boil above voicing discontent to my sins
I have found the way to trick the ferryman
I have deceived the ancient Gods

cold flesh lends to me its secrets for a price too high
I shudder at what I have done
each day brings me closer to you, my tragic victory

darling queen I lay at your feet...
chills take me as she wakes, throat gasps tainted breath
Ive reclaimed you my stolen bride
can your soul forgive my crimes of passion?
I would not close the casket; Im so consumed by your pain
faint screams echo through the night...

cold flesh lends to me its secrets for a price too high
I shudder at what I have done
each day brings me closer to you, my tragic victory

the pains of death can no longer haunt you
as the dawning sky brings forth one forsaken thought
death can not win for I now dwell in the palace of decay
and I shall stay the hands of fate

night descends, sinews twitch
my pale queen finally stands to taste silent lips now cursed with her love

cold flesh lends to me its secrets for a price too high
I shudder at what I have done
each day brings me closer to you, my tragic victory