.."looking at the pages of my life"..understanding..`ve never loved..never really liked anyone..never really understood anyone..never understood myself..never will..never really lived..never known how to live..it hurts..very much..'cause never felt this thing called LOVE..may be just can`t feel it..don`t have this ability..and never will..hurts..very much..hurts..and can do nothing about it..nothing..absolutely nothing..abusive..why can't we manage our life..our fate..and really no faith left..nothing left..confusing..hurting..hard..i can't say.."I'd lived..I'd loved"..hope will be able to say..before dying..and u know..noone really loved me..noone really 'd seen me the way I am..and who I am..noone wanted..noone 'd seen my eyes..things behind my eyes..as soon as I opened them..showed my eyes..you closed it..you closed my world from strangers..from everybody..even from friends..I don't know..whether to be grateful or not..but it is the way it is..and know..noone can hurt me..the way you did..noonecan find me..I'm invisible..my eyes are empty..they say nothing about me..they don't trust..the way they did..and you can't trust them..you shouldn't trust..'cause they're lying you..I'm lying you..I'm hiding from you behind eyes..I'm hiding past behind them..but some day..you'll understand everything..but it'll be late..too late.."now we've got to keep the faith..all we've got-to keep the faith"..

..and still..never loved..never will..never will trust as used to..