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I guess it was a black time. Seriously. I got even scared how it suddenly can got "dark".
I'm better. But tired. Absolutely exhousted. Powerless.
I'm almost fine.
I'm getting there.
I'm...
Hard to explain.

Talked to my host Dad. He said he saw me trying... bla bla

Talked to Ashlyn. We had a serious talk.

...
off topic: she has a boyfriend! I'm so happy for her.

Too much to tell.


There sometimes times when i don't care and emotions are too hard.

Thanks. Thanks to M. He'been thesunshine in my life, always and especially these days.
The last thing he said was: I'm glad you're alright. I worried about you.
Well, you know, I worried about myself too - i thought.
I said I feel bad I made you worry. He said he always does.
Do I deserve that?
To have him here? To have him around? To have him caring about me always? Or just to know him... Do I? Really?
I don't care about him breaking my heart anymore...
Maybe it sounds insane. I don't care. I don't mind.
I know that I would be hurt in the end, can't do anything about it.
I don't wanna hurt him. Coz he's such a great person.
Sometimes I feel so lucky. I've never fell for the bad guy. Maybe not a bad guy... for a jurk! Never.

See, there is always something to write about.
.......... Left problems behind.

*pretend they don't exist!*