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Bad times came.
They were not away. They were here. I just tryed to ignore it. As a result - i can see it's useless to pretend that nothing's happening.

Shock. I didn't know i could have a crisis like this.

Yesterday I had a AFS meeting with all the exchange students. I didn't want to talk about anything (Last time I talked a lot, sharing my experience, nobody told me to shut up.)
But againg, i couldn't. So I told them what's going on. Got an advice...
I don't cry here. Almost at all. Now, again, I realise that I shouldn't lock feelings and emotions in myself.
Then on the way back with my l`eson (I don't even know how to spell it but it means kurator...) She asked me what happened. I di't whant to. I did. She said i need to talk to them. Or shewill come and do it for me. That would be BAD!
I feel sad.
I have time till friday and she will do it.

Just don't worry about me.
I got used to it.
Everything that doesn't kill us makes us stronger or something like this.
Seriously, don't worry!

I'll disappear for a while againg.
And I'll be alright, more or less.........