Hello everybody!
how are you doing, how is everrything?
I didn't go to school today and it wasn't my idea not to go. I'm sick and tomorrow i have only halfday at school and then - winterbreak! It's so unfear that on my Orthodox Christmas I'll have school here. (January 7th)
I can't speak at all, was sleeping till 11 in the morning instead of usual 5:30.
It's very quiet here... Only my host Dad is at home, but he's working upstears and Misty, noisy snoring dog is here.
I have my play tonight at 7. I don't wanna go, coz i have a singing part in it... Anyway, i'm able to dance..... I'd better stay in bed. I'm sick for the first time here (i mean sick like this). Feels wierd staying at home at a school day. Here it's a very serious issue.
I got an email from my Daddy!!!!! It's so nice how he writes)))))) Makes me smile.
Большая просьба-напиши пару строк мне на работу.Мы готовимся к
переезду-пригласили гостей на это воскресенье,днем на три часа,теперь
нужно навести порядок и закупить продукты.Я буду жарить шашлык-ПРИЕЗЖАЙ
!!!!! Хотя летом,когда ты вернешься,будет все еще лучше-во дворе
зацветут цветы,а сейчас все завалено снегом!
Here theris no snow. At all, at Christmas might be some, but nobody's sure (just like nobody was sure in the snopwstorm on my birthday.)
Thinking and trying to plan what i'm gonna do at the break. I want to do as much as possible.
M came over my house yesterday. It was really nice of him. I couldn't talk a lot that's too bad! Well, anyway i told him - see, you come over now just when i'm sick! He said well, it's faster.
It was so comfortable to put my head on his shoulder and watching him holding my hand with his hands... I thought I can sit like this forever. When you're sich, anyone is dreaming of moments like these. He was joking and telling the stories, and joking, it's just so nice to hear the sound of his voice. Then I fell asleep for a minuter or so, he was talking to Ashlyn and my host mom.
At ten, when it was time for him to go, i was gonna say it was nice to see you finally (for the first time this week), but i couldn't. Then I tryed to say nevermind...same thing - no sound. And then M said I love you too. Too??? I got so comfused of this too! too... I didn't say I love you. Well, I didn't say anything.
If he'll tell me if I want to get back together i'll say NO.
And I have million reasons. Well, the voice inside is telling me, riminding about all the great time we had together.
BUT! we souldn't have taken a break. If 2 people like each other - they should stay together. At least if one of them is a problem... they should break up.
What happened between us is absolutely senceless. And now he thinks that i love him......