I was so "by myself". I never felt jealousy. I was never hurt by man. Well, I was, but never cared. And yes I was playing around without thinking. But who said we should stop and think? I never felt like this. And then...you with your love. People are wrong when they say that it is better to love and loose than to never love.
I was so free. So out of this world. And now I love this world... I love people, humanity...I dont want to die, I dont want to forget what I know...You changed my life to a difficult one. You showed that there are some people that just will stay in your heart forever. Maybe not heart, but just in YOU. And it scares me. I never wanted things to get so complicated. I wanted to watch love moovies and have fun saying: they are all same. And I did. But then. Then you came and I started crying. Crying a lot when just heared any story of love.
I even started to love my friends more after I met you. Because I understood how much they mean to me.

Даша, хочу туда, на крышу, и курить. Хочу грозу и ночь.