trying to get used to the new status.. new life... feeling sad about the spoiled week-end. actually, quite a nice week-end, but this fuckin' hometask.. time to say good-bye to the day, that has already passed, but.. again.. this fucking hometask.. the astute among those having accompanied me before would know how difficult it is for me to endure that now... i've always been... doesn't matter... time has come to show me that, in fact, i'm nothing. not worth anything.. why do they do that.. and, please, is there anybody in this world who could explain me particular things.. i'm tired of not being able to find reasonable explanations.. those who are still not indifferent to me.. wish me luck.. i will need it next week... lacking the possibility of... apparently, my time has come to its end..

too many coincidences this week.. does it mean anything? or do i pay too much attention to such sort of things?..

at least engaged.. true or not?.. and.. will it really happen?.. are you in? sure?..