its been slippin away from me,,,
ive been standing so tall, on such a hard ground,,, and now im crowchin in a corner,
moved by the deepest of fears,,, pushed to the edge of insanity
with no power of words,,, no way of explaining,,, this chaos in my head,,,
wham,,, and everything is pitch black,,,
ive never been scared,,, i dont know what to do with the feeling,
ure right about that, it comes over me,,
and suddenly theres this idea what if? just what if i go against it
and do the opposite of what it tells me?
can i climb the highest rollercoaster?
how long before i stop pissin my pants as they fasten the seat belts,,,
am i capable of it really?
i seem to have started using the word cant too much,,
even thou ive never beleived in its existence,,, and what if i prove myself wrong
ive been soo tied up with tryin to prove everyone else wrong
have i lost a moment when they beleived in me and i lost the same beleief?
thoughts in my head,,, irrational fear of everthing
being forgot being broken being unloved
is this just some sort of frustration?
blah cant seem to write
but ill get back up there
i was born for somethin
i failed to die for something
and i will find that something
i swear