Have you ever been so attached to someone that without that person... well its nothingness,,, like pure nothingness,,, and its meaningless,,,
every step u take doesnt make a difference,,, n u r scared,,, scared to death to really feel, really let urself feel something, anything,,, cuz ure scared of that thing inside being let out loose,,, tryin to get urself lost in time, tryin to lose all underderstanding of reality,,, not think of a future, or the past,,, n u r so tired but u fear the bed, cuz once u sit on it u just wanna cry, n u eventually just let it swallow u, n let urself drawn in these dreams and when u wake up ur first thought is SWALLOW,,, n u sit there eatin something doesnt matter what, n u push it down, and it keeps comin up and u keep pushin it down, with the tears with all thoughts and dreams and hopes, n ur mind is in constant war with itself,,, u keep the door shut n a guard on it,,, n everytime the guard goes off ur knees turn to jelly n ure on the floor before u know it, ure down there somewhere and u force urself to get up, u fight for air, not cuz u wanna breath but cuz ure scared of that darkness swallowing u completely and u keep fightin to exist,,,, knowing u just cant live,,,