you promised me and dissapeared

you said you loved me, i believed

you said you need me, i need you

then why oh tell me please i feel the pain come through

it's cutting into flesh

and nothing seems lightness

its everything you do, that makes me feel the way i do...

between the words i catch

a breath another breath

i seem to lose control, its not so normal...

describe the words of love

describe "i will be here"

and all i see is emptiness, its real.

between the sky and earth

another universe and deeply through the wind

another rain comes in...

there's nothing in your way

to do the words you say

but still you walk on by

i wonder why i try...

 

 

EVER FELT THE PAIN CUTTING THROUGH YOU HEART LIKE A SPEAR, TAKING AWAY YOUR EVERYTHING AND

WHEN IT'S OVER GIVING IT BACK TO YOU ... IT GOES IN CYCLES AND NEVER STOPS, DROPS AND DROPS ...

FEELING HELPLESS YOU GIVE UP, THATS WHEN IT GOES AWAY AND THEN YOU GAIN THE STRENGTH TO MOVE

ON ... AND THERE IT GOES AGAIN...

FaLL IN LOVE AND THEN BETRAYED YOU'RE HURT AGAIN ... YOU CAN'T BREATHE, YOU CAN'T SEE ANY LIGHT AROUND

BUT YOU STILL WALK INTO NOWHERE, AGAIN ... THE PAIN, THE LONG WAY SUFFERING, THE SCARS ...

YOU DON'T SEE THE FUTURE, YOU LIVE WITH YOUR PAST AND HOLD IT TIGHT IN YOUR LAP ...

SO YOU ASK YOUR SELF IF IT WILL EVER BE OVER BECAUSE YOU STILL HAVE hope ... hOPE IS WHAT KEEPS

YOU STANDING STRONG LIKE A TREE IN THE WIND...

 

I THOUGH ABOUT MYSELF ... HOW DID I GO ON???

AM I THAT STRONG?? IS THERE ANYTHING FOR ME

HIDDEN IN THE FUTURE??? WHAT'S THE NEXT MOVE??

BUT I REALIZE THAT THE ANSWERS ARE NOT ALWAYS THERE, NOT

ALWAYS POSITIVE, NOT ALWAYS ANSWERS ... SO I MOVE ON AND LIVE

MY LIFE LIKE A CYCLE, DOING THE SAME THINGS, TRYING SOMETHING

NEW ONCE IN A WHILE, GETTING HURT AND FALLING BUT THEN

GETTING UP AGAIN AND REALIZING THAT ONE LIFE I HAVE

AND I SHOULD FORGIVE, FORGET IF POSSIBLE AND MOVE ON TO

A NEW LEVEL...

I REALIZE THAT NOBODY WILL UNDERSTAND ME AND THAT

I SHOULDN'T EXPECT ANYONE TO ...

YES, IT HURTS BUT LOOK HOW FAR I'VE COME...

NOBODY KNEW, KNOWS, OR WILL KNOW ABOUT

WHAT'S HIDDEN IN MY SOUL OR HEART EXEPT GOD...

THE ONE WHO KNOWS ME WELL AND THE ONE THAT KEEPS

ME GOING THROUGH EVERYTHING ...

 

so ask me why all this????

because my heart is restless ...

one minute it's okay and the other

is just empty ...

the days are long but the nights are longer ..

even my dreams are empty now ...

i know a future comes but

i don't think about it anymore ...

i'm living with today knowing that

if i start dreaming again ... i will get hurt

i will fall and that this time i might not have enough

strength to get up and look ahead ...

because I don't see anyone beside ...

someone i need right now is too far ...

someone to hold me is too weak

so what's left ???

nimic .... (nothing)

 

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