We shall never know the origin of life, or
the meaning of life, or the nature of space and time,
or the nature of nature, or the nature of thought.
Life is fantastically deceitful and complex. It's never
sincere and simple. Neither are people.
Illusions - rejected...taking an objective look at an outside world.
Regarding it as a motion in time and space.Relationships.Sex.Sex as
an institution,sex as a general notion,sex as a problem,sex as a
platitude...
*initial difficulty/false facts cognoscenti
the imagination of a small child at once distorts,alters the
bizzare things he is told about the 'busy bee'-->the kid has to
invent his own world of a 'busy bee'-->injecting average reality
into the brew of individual fancy and newly found sexual identity.
All the above should form an easy going, good-natured atmosphere
for acquiring more self-confidence that you've ever had-->aficionadas
keeping you warm and safe.
Somehow, my scheme/based on my own experience/ doesn't seem to
work smothly,not even for me. I guess it also takes an inborn
capacity of recombining and re-creating the given world,avoiding
duplication, turning your every move in time and space into a
masterpiece of wit.
*the first shock of recognition/theory shattered by reality
a sudden sense of 'this is not at all what i want!' At first
the process goes on solely in the mind. At times it seems the
whole world is spinning inside my head.
*facing reality/mistificator/agent provocateur
facing challenges and reacting to it adequately.
redressing 'shit/bingo' balance by minimizing the
'shit's and 'maximizing' the 'bingos'. and all of that -
on your own.One is always alone.In someone's company or not...
there are no things in life that are about team work...every
thing, every time...on your own...as before the blank page