В колонках играет - Nirvavna - My girl
Настроение сейчас - aka frustrated

finished---i am in uni----should feel easy groove 'n' relaxed---dunno---even the closest one is too far away----my blog becoming my diary---too personilised to understand---too intimate to read---i'll keep it that way--the paradox of situation is that i am confused---i want her to enjoy everything and this will make me happy----but this makes me suffering---i losing pleasure from teasing her---i always think about this---i think that i won't be able to do this to her--and the final point that i am right--whatever she would say---we both know that she enjoing it---and it is the only way she can feel like this--now she is lying next to me---if she only know how painful became for me to be with her---think about sex with her or just talk to her---all i know i shouldnt talk to her about this---i dont want to hear lie and be comfortably numb--i dont want lie to myself---she tells me that she loves me only after it---and just a fealing of touching her after it like i did this morning killing me---feel when she warming down after it and my pathetic tries to stimulate her---she too tolerate to let me know and apparently we both know the truth---i am not feeling anymore like i am a MAN---dunno,i afraid that she could think that i am just jelous but its wrong---i want her to be happy--she is the best thing happppend to me ever---maybe,i just not good enough for her.

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